I have not been blogging regularly for the past couple of months. It's not that I have nothing to blog - there are many issues swimming in my head at the moment that I wish I am able to put them into writing. It's just that I am too occupied with too many things in the seminary. Sometimes I wish I have 48 hours in a day; sometimes I wish I only need to sleep for 4 hours at night.
For the past couple of weeks, I have been feeling rather depressed every time I walk into my office. When I see the piles of stuff on my desk, check my to-do-list, and be reminded of the many yet to be replied emails, I feel like drowning. Yet - my thesis student is crying for help; my M Theol student is also waiting to see me; and another D Theol thesis is waiting to be examined.
Fighting for time is a constant battle. Yet when we as lecturer are unable to give time to the students as a result of our tight schedule and workload, are we less pastoral? For example, my thesis student would like to see me urgently tomorrow. Yet my schedule for tomorrow looks like this:
9.00-10.30am - Travelling from Kuala Lumpur to the seminary
11.00-1.00pm - Community Chapel service
1.00-1.30pm - Lunch
1.30-4.30pm - Guided study for Readings in Greek for 2 students
4.30-7.00pm - Faculty Meeting
7.00-9.00pm - Faculty farewell dinner for my colleague who will be on sabbatical for a year beginning September
Looks like the only time I can see my thesis student is after 9.30pm, if I am still standing.
Am I less pastoral when there is simply no time to see my student and that he has to wait till 9.30pm to see me? By the time I head back to my apartment, it would most likely be after 10.30pm.....